L'APPARTEMENT.

I know it’s pretty much Sunday, but I’ve bought two Christmas gifts today and one of them isn’t complete. I realize I’m spending a lot of my money on the few people I was actually thinking about. I don’t really expect them to get me anything, but that’s not the point of giving.

I never thought about getting other people gifts purely because I wanted too and these items just reminded me so much of them. It’s a different feeling and it’s burning a hole in my pocket, but I really hope they like their gifts.

Here’s to feeling different — In a good way.

Ew.

Now I remember why I don’t like being high.
I’m like “cool I can sit back and feel like a feather.” Then I am so over it within twenty minutes that I want to come down, but I can’t.

And I just don’t like to smoke or drink a lot because I just get cuddly and horny and I just don’t care. I make moves and its embarrassing.

I’m too much of a pussy to date anyone. I realize that I cannot fully put my trust in anyone, even for the simplest things, so how could I give anyone my heart?

I picked one of the best professions. Name an audio engineer with a family.

I would rather have fun with someone, but then I don’t put any effort into that anyway.

So I just assumed this new guy at my college was just weird. Maybe a bit off, insisted I add him on fb and give him my number.

Sure why not what could it hurt?
Yeah, welp. The man is just awkward. You do not text your new friend at 10:30pm saying “you’re my new friend!”

Dude, you’re 26 as what your fb says. Cmonnnn.

It’s funny. At first I was pissed that I wanted someone to cuddle and of that shit. And how some girls I care for are like “you’re pretty, but you’re independent. It’s great, you don’t need a boy to function.”

No, I don’t, but I wouldn’t mind someone.

But I am now eating cold pizza and I feel content.

I’ve just thought about this past year and what I’ve done.

I got my first apartment and  moved out of it.
I went to Las Vegas, Phoenix, Milwaukee, and Chicago.
I’m more than half way done with college.

Do not let anything stop you.

You want to take that trip to the other side of the country, the world? Do it.
“But I don’t have anyone to go with.”

You do not need another person to go somewhere.
All you need is yourself, a bag, and some money.

I think it took me this long to realize I’ll be okay on my own. I doubt myself of where I’m going in my life. I question what I’m doing, what I should be doing, but I’ve accomplished so much and traveled a lot this year. This might seem silly, but it kind of clicked a little bit more when I heard John O’Callaghan tell someone that he strongly believed that he could — anyone could do anything they wanted to if they tried.

I agree.